Recently I was visiting with an old friend that I had not talked to years. I realized something terrible about myself as I looked back on this visit over the next few days--sometimes I cannot shutup and run my mouth WAY TOO MUCH! Add a few glasses of wine to the situation and I become a volcano of erupting crap that comes flowing out of my mouth. My husband pointed out to me the other night that I become very loud after a glass or two of wine and like everyone when they are drinking, I become very adamant about what I have to say. (although at times I can be LOTS of fun too!!)
Well needless to say, I was drinking at the time I was talking to my dear old friend. I can only imagine how stupid I looked after all these years, (although I've been assured I did not) but I do hope my friend will forgive and we will not wait 15 years before we catch up again.
This incident and the following days that I spent contemplating it, made me think about impressions that we make on a daily basis. We really do only get one chance to make a first impression. I just hate to think that that is the one on which we are most judged. I feel like a child that should have listened to my mother's advice and should have been on my best behavior. Instead I was a fool and did not leave the impression that I wanted.
Don't worry, I certainly did not do anything inappropriate, but I just hate to make myself look like a fool if I don't have to. If you haven't seen someone in a long time, looking like an idiot is not the memory you want to leave for the next 15 years.
Well I guess I will continue to replay in my head the bits of the conversation that I actually remember (and beat myself up for!) and just try to stop worrying about the things I don't. I hope to get the chance to right my wrong and redeem myself at some point.
Although my husband says its impossible and I've never done so, I am admitting I was wrong. There you go Barry, I've done it and you can't say that about me anymore!
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